Grace and the gospel

I have been with the Pynes for a week now and have been stunned by their lifestyle: doing busy insanity. Knowing others is tossed out in favor of doing things. I can see how the head of the home directs this. It is sad and I can see how much Emily has changed from this lifestyle to the point that it frustrates her. I am joyful that God has used me to influence Emily in this way, showing her the way of knowing God and others. And its not like her mom wants to be like this; she submits cheerfully to this. She would like to read books and talk to people. Nate has changed to since he has been at BBC and around Doc. Going to church was good, but first I was not prepared because the household was going nuts before hand. Then in Sunday school I hear that I need to obey the sermon on the mount. The new pastor was really good: he has a passion for God that the church needs. But I am starving for the good news that Christ has died and lives for me, that he has fulfilled the law in my place. I am weighed down beneath the law of performance, or living as doing. I want the gospel; I want the encouragement of others who are pursuing Christ. I feel physically anxious when the household explodes with activity; I cower as we eat formally; I am annoyed that they always watch sports and talk about sports. I am glad that I can be with Emily, but I will be glad to go back home where we can actually talk about eternal things. Life has been so busy so that I almost say: I want to call Emily and talk to her. But she is with me, but we don't get to talk because life has been hectic! We have been having some good talks though. Spiritual things are almost tacked on her as we wholesale buy into American Consumer Christmas. ACH! I want you guys back. I did get some cool things for Christmas, like some cool sweaters, tree id books, and a good-sized Craftsman tool set. Anyway, I love you guys. I finished the best things in life- it was good. I will blog about it later. I have to go to bed, the Pynes are and Emily is staying at her Aunt's house down here in Alabama. Bye.