As I left college, I cried ... a lot. I found myself in this bizarre state of mixed emotions about the entirety of my life. I had plans for burning out of the parking lot and never coming back, but rather I meekly creeped out in intermittent tears. I had this epiphany that most of what I worked on for the past three and a half years, I was driving away from. I cried almost the whole way to Wilkes-Barre. Just that morning, McGrew told me that I would be depressed within the next few months, though I never thought it would be the same day. I listened to the entirety of the Blue album by Weezer (for probably the 600th time). By the time I got to Hannah's, I think I looked like a blurry-eyed, cracked-out hobo. But, after she gave me a big hug and kiss, and told me I looked homeless, I came unto another epiphany. In less than four months, I'm committing myself in marriage to the most amazing girl I know, and I couldn't be happier. While I miss you guys more than you probably know, I'm marrying my best friend for the rest of my life, so in this I rejoice.
I love you guys. I miss you guys.
"Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end." - semisonic.
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I am sorry Jeremy...if we had all stayed together on Wednesday night we would have all been homeless-looking and teary-eyed. As for me, I never felt that post-graduation euphoria I expected. I will probably experience this when I go home apart from Emily and the holiday festivities that violence her family. The times I have been alone to think (like when I was wrapping Emy's presents) I have been saddened while contemplating my happy demise. I rejoice in my freedom from the pressures or school and security, but I will wait for the flood of bizarre emotions to drown me. Let us look to the rest that Joshua did not give, bu that Jesus has obtained for us.
Jeremy,
It is good to hear that I am not the only blubberface of the bunch. I locked the door and wept for about half an hour after you left. I drove away fighting back emotions I did not expect, and that were only stymied by my car breaking down. But like you the color reappeared into my black/white world when I saw Janelle. We must remember that we have not lost each other as friends, we have just gained others friends (our wives) that will now also partake of this friendship.
Interestingly enough, I added that semisonic line to my journal also right after you left...
I left school after everyone with company - not alone. I haven't had that lonely car ride home yet, but it's coming tomorrow. After Jared left, I didn't cry, but was just kind of stunned for a while in my room. No one was around and I watched my Dad drive the van up to pack my things. I am glad we all got to go and be with our women. BBC has blessed us with wives too eh? ('Cept for Jeremy). I'm praying for you guys and I love you.
i'm glad i'm not the only one who cried. now i feel better about myself. amen.
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